just like any other day but this one was amazing

smiling has become easy because of yours

after trying so hard, how perfect it is to stop

you say everything right and i just can’t wait to hear you speak again

thank you for keeping me happy and being my warmth

i needed this in my life, i needed something in my life

turns out i needed you

do you think completely breaking down has a point?

i toy with the idea that it could all be gone so soon

but she is soft and it brings me back for just a short while

lonliness may be the worst pain i have ever felt

never to have really felt it before now

leave before they could leave you was such a better motto

the satin is empty and who knows how many were here before

i can’t imagine the pain i put myself through

‘never underestimate the power of denial’

pure lust empties into the green and i cry and sicken myself

never should be so hard and never to be so easy

i don’t know how to love anymore

there is no one worth loving anymore… including me

for the few of you who don’t know… i am single.

now there are not many great qualities to singledom but i will let you know one of them…dicks.

yep, that’s right. i don’t have to feel the same cock day-in-and-day-out. now i know a couple of you ho-baby friends of mine are thinking - tanya, screws a bunch of dicks!? NO! come on… you have to check under the hood before you test drive the car! and do you want to know what i have come up with…

the freaking cars are not worth driving! eeny, weeny, teenies! they just don’t make them like they used to - it’s a saying that continually comes to mind! how the hell am i supposed to date someone where my pinky will be the satisfying factor in our relationship!? ugh! now, on a less shallow note, i can tell you it doesn’t matter but i really would be lying, so let’s continue with the saga of shallowness.

now there will be some of you who think, why the hell is she saying this, but hey, there are a lot of views here - so someone is reading this crap. now - for the men out there right now who are thinking i am a complete biotch for writing this… don’t worry i am sure there are procedures. and if not… well welcome to the singles club - it frickin sucks!

there might be a body and so it goes

i am incessantly insensitive but at least you’re here

i am alive but apparently not living up to your standards

many points were made as the lights of traffic pilled

and tears slowly slienced me from telling you to stop

you said your peace and i said goodbye

i have been meaning to say you are right

writing and speaking and yet nothing comes out

who will give me what i want when i show i have nothing to give

such a smile and there is blankness behind it

such a laugh and it is completely asleep

speechless, voiceless, i watch the ones i love love

i am grateful they have this and i think where is mine

i watch the ones i love love…

because i have yet to show love

and not until this man said to me today, did i realize

i lay here and wait for a soulmate

because i don’t share my soul