my body is abandonded yet full of twisted knots

they say it is rare and i love to make history

we all appreciate being incomparable and having a story

investigating pain and feeling for pills to dismiss it

can’t espy where the friends i savored conversations went

wham, bam, thank you ma’am

miss me inferiorly and presume true the sentiment becomes mutual

no sugar, no poem, no in-between-lines just harsh, sweet honesty

i was there for those who needed shoulders

hair held back, gave sober rides, gentle talks

let’s say it lucidly; i am sure my breathing space is limited to you

i am limitless in the hearts of only a few

just so proud i figured who those few finally are

you couldn’t help but sink it

i would’ve loved to drown it

both succeeded

it was the sadistic side that placed the graphic view

here holding the cage below

there relishing in your ignorance

broken but hopeful, you are the lost one

impel but certain, he is unspeakable

love is the answer

you never were

she says its friends
but I know its not for long
i am being replaced
she will forget what we had
nothing is ever perfect
im hurt and in pain
where is the love you bragged about
where is the future you wanted with me
its all just words without meaning
you’ll do it again

the bed was empty
it didnt feel the same
it was too dark
it smelled like her
why did it go this way

broken promises
broken dreams
broken hearts
broken everything
i am broken
she broke me
and it didn’t hurt to break it, it only hurt to see it broken

emergency dated

even the quarry is crying

the night seemed one of the lonliest

yet it had to be done

guilt will never subside

pain will always have the upper hand

your love will forever be precious

regret is completely insufficient

but my heart is broken and

that should make your life so much brighter

i knew you were capable.
i didn’t think you could do it again.
i am something but not everything
what is everything.
i did what I did because I needed to know.
you did what you did because your searching.
i hope you find what your looking for.
but i realize once again, that I am not that.
goodbye to everything I loved.
goodbye to all of the moments.
its all life lessons.
someday but not today.
me, but not this time.

while your voice is inconversable the key strokes speak

unexpressed but i am dying to hear something

you make the moments emotive and i choose to hope for more

desire me for everything you’ve wanted

you are the end of the long road that says there has always been better

sputtering sentences, wishful thinking, calamitous history and possibilites

nothing is vanilla put; reading between the lines has never been harder

but try and focus, make yourself see, pick a way out

i am here

always was

everything i said yesterday i’ll say today and everything i said today i’ll say tomorrow.

but if there are no more tomorrows i will have said everything i wanted.

and just in case you’re reading,

after all the yesterdays, todays and tomorrows

what stays is ‘i love you’.